The anxieties have not subsided to the extent I had hoped. I continue to feel overwhelmed, juggling school and work and the fact that I have no fallback plan. But I’m trying not to dwell. If I know myself at all, these anxious feelings will most likely persist well after all of my applications have been turned in. So, on with the show.
Where did we last leave off? Oh yes, Friday. Friday I finished editing PL, which went quite smoothly. I’m happy with where the piece rests right now, aside from the fact that the damn thing has no name. I’ll have to do another edit on it if I want to include it in my portfolio (and, you know, title the fucker), but it has really come a long way since its infancy and for that I’m proud of myself. Then I went to work where I broke two beer glasses and spilled a bowl of soup and a bowl of rice, prompting the elderly Japanese owner to ask me if I was “a Jewish” and whether I was “having my celebration.”
“Please, you no having party right now! You go a working now! Have party after!”
This is one of the funniest things ever said to me by another human being. However, when I returned from work the excitement of talking to my bestest friend in Shanghai for the first time in forevs caused me to shatter my brother’s outdoor light bulb on the pavement. It was simply not my day.
I spent my Saturday pre-work time finally editing SU, which has been a long time coming. I’m not entirely sure I’ll even be submitting this as part of my grad school portfolio, but it was something that needed to be done none the less. So now, it’s done.
Today is my first day off since Tuesday, and I’m tempted to curl up in the fetal position on the couch all day. But alas, there is laundry to be done, a first draft to finish, and an essay to write. So I’ll do some of that stuff instead.